My awakening began 21 years ago, but now looking back, it was a very slow process as I was controlled by the illusion of fear and not loving SELF, even though my intention was always to love and to be loved. I also believed that others could heal and I would openly promote their services to family and friends, but I never imagined that I was that ‘special’ or good enough. At the end of 2014, in a kinesiology session my body and soul were finally ready to heal self - love issues – One of my biggest lessons in this lifetime for me; The other lesson I had to learn is that YOU can’t rush or try to control the universe, everything comes ONLY once we are ready and all in divine timing.
I wasn’t prepared for what followed, 2015 was a massive year for my spiritual growth. Self – love is so much MORE than I could of imagined. It seemed to unlock door after door after door, all with amazing wonderful moments and working with beautiful giving souls reminding me of what was always there, my light shining bright and connected to a source, one I had worked with many times before. This same year I was guided to attend a Crystal Awakening workshop facilitated by Rachelle Charman who is a highly respected Australian Crystal Shaman and who's powerful connection to the Crystal Kingdom and understanding of their healing gifts is truly inspirational. On day 2 of the workshop we traveled through to the 13th Chakra in a meditation. In this meditative journey I was blessed to be able to visit ‘Home’ and share space with the elders (light beings) this is a home that my heart longs to return too, beyond this time and space, where there is no separation, only connection to ONE. The Elders communicate through what felt to me as pure light intelligence with a clear message -- I was NOT honoring mySELF or the mission I was sent back into this realm to complete. Basically, they kicked my butt, and it shook me to my core and it made me really look at mySELF and the bigger picture, not as an individual but the BIGGER plan and the 'MISSION' they spoke off ... could I do this? The answer that came was NO,..... But why?? Now that's a great question and if you'd asked the me back then, I would have come up with a million reasons why NOT; "I don't know what I'm meant to do", 'Who would listen to me?", Why would anyone care what I have to say?" 'I can't, I can't, I can't......'
I had a million excuses not to step into my OWN POWER or speak my OWN TRUTH, but this was the pivotal moment that finally made me look at the situation in a different way, and use my intuition. I chose to look through my third eye (a bird's eye over view) and what did I see? Well.. ME. The role I had been playing in my movie I called 'Life". to put it simply, I was the common denominator in all the excuses, drama, stress and emptiness I was feeling,
Yep, me.
It was only when this came into my awareness. I began to take responsibility and actively stopped pointing the finger outside. It was time to point that finger within.
The steps that followed had me searching for answers to all my questions, 'why did I feel incomplete, not whole, like something was missing?'..... The Universe will always provides the answers to all our questions, but ONLY if we are willing to stop, listen and surrender to it's magical powers of manifestation and unconditional LOVE. My cries for help were heard and the answers came in the shape of two divinely beautiful and powerful Goddesses, My heart tells me now looking back, that I was always meant to work with these magnificent souls to help me remember the who, the what and the why's of whom I came here to BE.
My story would not be complete if I didn't include them in it. As I love to say "I am not a ONE woman show". My deepest bows in gratitude to Yvette Doudle, Goddess of Light and Healer of Healers -- who continues to support me and my inner journey into deeper connection and expression of my authentic self and to my magickal Mother Goddess, Louise Humphreys who I worked under as her first student (Sacred Goddess Healer course) back in 2016. Thank YOU for seeing the LIGHT in me, before I could see it for mySELF.
This brings us to the present. 'Why am I here and what is my souls purpose, my mission?"
I AM here to help YOU remember, to support you in awakening the LIGHT of YOUR sacredness within. I am here to lead by example and hold the light that guides you through the darkness.
We are cycles within cycles, within cycles. Understand that we are all here to learn through the lessons, triggers, and human emotions. It's our mind's perception that creates the negative outcomes we experience in this lifetime, I wish to help you in seeing through the illusion. To find balance within you. The feminine and the masculine energy -- Despite the gender we identify ourselves with, we are actually both—man and woman. Just like the sun the moon, we must work in harmony within ourselves. We all have male energy (Shiva) and female energy (Shakti) which channels on either side of the body, are known as Nadis (the word meaning a stream) though which Prana (life force) circulates. ,<---- How cool is that!
I want you to know, that you hold the key that opens all your doors that belong to you. By continuing to do the SELF work and peeling back the layers of the old beliefs, old fears, old energy and old baggage, the real you will step out of the shadows and into the LIGHT.
So why share my story, and why isn't it ALL about LOVE and LIGHT?
I share my story to show you that we all have a 'story'. If that story isn't giving you the love, joy and inner peace you deserve, it can be rewritten. It takes a courageous heart to face your fears, but what you will find hiding here is something so beautiful, magical and magnificent, the real YOU!
There has never been a better time on this planet to do this than right NOW! The story that is YOU, the true authentic YOU that you came here to become. When we do the work and rewrite our NOW story, we not only heal in the present moment, but we also HEAL our past and future selves permitting a deeper level clearing of our ancestral bloodline for ALL our generations.
If my words and my energy resonate within you, I invite you to get in touch perhaps for a healing session or head over to my on-line shop and browse through The Sacred Collection. There you'll find ritual Candles and powerful tools infused with various earth medicines to support your journey and encourage all of your hearts desires.
My deepest love and gratitude for seeing me as I see you, in light. Mari XxX